Summer love

It's been a while since I've posted.....I'm just enjoying summer. I wish it was summer all year except the month of December, then I like the snow! We've have had so much fun with the boys lately and I find myself dreaming about what it will be like when their older....but who am I kidding.....these days are priceless! Even though it's tough to take the baby to the beach and I worry about sun exposure, mosquito bites and West Nile with my 8 month old, I just know I can never get this time back and no matter what age they are there will always be a new set of worries. So....I put it in God's hands. We go to the beach, he's had a mosquito bite or two and we're better than OK. My oldest, Mason, is loving summer too. He's learned how to ride a bike and loves to swim and play outside. He'd run from sun up till sun down if we let him. Last night we went to my parents to paint a sign for Vacation Bible School. While me and my parents painted, he drove the Gator around the yard and caught fire flies.....he loves bugs! I am so truly thankful for my children and my family, they are my life.
With the 4th approaching I've also been thinking how grateful I am for our service men and women. When you truly sit and just think about what they sacrafice it brings tears. While I watched my son catch fireflies, ride the Gator, gazed at the sunset with my 8 month old on my chest and my husband holding my 3 year old in the Lake, riding bikes in the park, having birthday parties at the YMCA, there are families many miles apart. There are daddy's at battle and mommy's praying their partner returns safetly to their child's open arms for a giant bear hug. Thanks military families, I love You and am praying for you and I will be more often. I can never thank you enough for your gift to our country.

It's a new day!

I have had so many monumental events in the past 10 years. I got married, had two kids , bought a home, got two dogs....it just seems like so much has happened! I have changed so much over these years. I no longer am the same person I was 10 years ago, and it's for the better. I love my kids more than I could ever grasp the concept of. They bring meaning to my life in a way that nothing else ever has. Every day has a greater purpose, a new meaning and life is no longer for or about me....it's all about them. Every emotion I feel is so much greater than ever before. When my oldest gets hurt I feel panic like none other. When I hold my 7 month old as he sleeps I feel peace like none other. When I see my son climb up the jungle gym faster than the other kids, I feel proud like none other. When I see my parents play with my children I feel fortunate like none other. Dumb things like the fact that my oldest still can't pronounce "L" at age 3 1/2 brings concern like none other "Could he have a speech problem?" I ask myself....and I ask the Dr.....and his preschool teacher....and finally a speech therapist that tells me that's normal and then that brings relief like none other AHHHHHH....he's OK!! I like so many other mom's think at the end of the day how I could have done so many things better, taught my son more, been more patient, fed him a healthier meal, gave him more milk , held the baby more, played with the baby more BLAH BLAH BLAH. I remind myself, I am human, imperfect and that tomorrow is a new day. I pray for patience and ask God to help me be the mother he wants me to be. I know I will never be perfect but like no other time in life I want to be perfect because the worst place to see your mistakes is in your own children. This blog will be about my growth as a mother, wife and child of God. I have grown a lot but I am thankful that tomorrow is a new day and I get a fresh start.